"I thought it would be hard to do all the things you wanted. To be your fantasy. But, that isn't the hard part. It is doing all those things and still not having you. I don't really care what everyone else thinks. I just care about you. I just want you to love me, to need me, half as much as I love you. For a long time now I have done everything I know to please you. I don't even know who I am anymore. I just know that I find myself more angry with you every day. I used to cry when I went to bed, now I am just angry. The only way I ever get to sleep is to promise myself that tomorrow I will get up and end it. Then I get up and read one of your poems. Do you know that I keep them in a notebook by my bed. I know all of them by heart."

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By: Roe

© 1999 Roe